Journaling

Disclaimer: This post will be boring, no pictures, nothing exciting, just information so that I can write down everything that has gone on the past year so that I will remember what happened when.  I should have been writing everything down while it was happening because I'm already forgetting what happened when, but this will just have to do.  Also, this post is not for ANYONE to feel bad for us or think that I'm writing this on the blog so that people will know about it or to get sympathy.  It is only so that I have everything written down to look back on someday.

A year ago we had decided to start trying to have a baby.  We had been married for 2 years and we knew it might take us a bit to actually get preg so we decided it was a good time.  All the time we were married we knew we wanted to wait until we were financially stable, had good insurance and would be able to have a kid without anyone's help financially.  We wanted to make sure Dal would be close to done with school so that it wouldn't be too rough on him trying to work and get an engineering degree.

Never in a million years did I think it would take this long, and honestly, compared to most people that struggle with infertiility we are still at the very beginning.  I feel bad because SO many people try for way longer than we have even thought about.  People in our own families have had this struggle and dealt with it for way longer and way better than I have.  I honestly look up to them so much and think about them so often.

So here's my timeline for myself:
After 2 months of trying, we actually got pregnant, but found out it was an ectopic pregnancy, which can be dangerous but mine turned out ok.  We were of course devastated but it was still early in the process and were glad to know that we could most likely get pregnant for real in the long run.  That was in May.

We decided to go to the doc to get everything checked out, I think that was beginning of November.  My initial tests all came back good which meant there could possibly be a deeper problem that I have or that it was Dallan. He couldn't get in to get tested for a few weeks, so in the mean time the doctors had me gain a few pounds, keep working out 4-5 days a week and eating small meals more often to see if that would help. Dal was tested the end of that month and everything came back good.

 Right after that we found out we were pregnant again. This was the beginning of December.  We were SO excited but at the same time, it didn't seem real.  I couldn't believe it because I had had a positive before and before I knew it it was gone.  The same thing happened with this.  We new for a few days and were so excited and planning everything, and then I took another test just to be sure and again, the positive had turned into a negative.  The day after that I dealt with all of the "passing" of everything and the doctors just told me to take it easy that day.  Since I was not far along at all I didn't have to get a D&C or anything like that, which was good.

As for now, we are just kind of playing a waiting game.  Are next 2 options are to get a laparascopy for possible endometriosis or do artificial insemination.  We are waiting until Dal is done with this rough semester and we kind of have the summer off to deal with any of that.  Who knows, it may happen on its own in the meantime and we wont have to have any of that done.  I probably won't ever get in Clomid because there are some studies say that it can lead to Ovarian cancer faster if you have a high risk of that, which I may because of my aunt who is dealing with it, so my doctor doesn't want me to do any of that.  My doc also said I just may have a hard time ever being able to sustain a pregnancy and carry normally, since I have been able to get pregnant twice, but this is all preliminary, we honestly don't really know.

We know this is still early and its only been a year, and that people try for WAY longer than we have and I am completely aware of it.  Everyone tells us to "quit worrying about it" or "it will happen when it's supposed to" and "atleast you know you can get pregnant" but sometimes nothing really helps to hear when EVERYONE around you is pregnant.

  I can honestly say that I am so happy when I hear that someone else is, and I don't want anyone to think that I'm not happy for people cause I really am.  I will not be happier when I hear I have more nieces or nephews coming, because I still always think that if for some reason we really can't have kids, I'll atleast have them, cause I pretty much feel like they're my own kids anyways.

So ya, this was my rant about everything and it is truly just for a journal for me and Dal.  We honestly feel so blessed and are lucky in so many ways and really have nothing to complain about. Sorry if this was a boring post but I really did need to get this written somewhere and this is my only place I journal anything.

Updated Pics

While we were in Delta for Christmas Dal's awesome sister Jenny took a few pics of us since we haven't had any done since our engagements.  She was a trooper cause she had a baby just a week ago! She did such a good job and I'm so glad to have a few new pics around!

Pics and and update from Christmas in Blanding and Delta to come, hope everyone had a good Christmas break!

Catching Up

Here are a few pics of some of the things we did this summer! I'm horrible at taking pics so this is not gonna be the greatest journal in the long run, but at least it's somethin!

Bees game with Dev, Dal, and Skylar. It was SO fun to see them again, we can hardly ever figure out a time that works for both of us to meet up!

After work one day we were both wanting to get out of town for a bit so we hurried and threw stuff in the truck and went up Logan Canyon to cook out.  It was so weird, we COULD NOT get a fire started to save our lives, so we finally said screw it and just went home to cook it at our house.  The next day I found out that we still weren't cleared to have fires up there and someone had just gotten a $1,000 dollar fine for having one, so we're pretty glad we didn't end up getting it goin!

This is how my hands looked for a few days this summer, I could not get this purple stain off my hands after coloring a girl's hair purple, so don't worry, I looked pretty sweet and got lots of weird looks.

First USU game and the only one I have gone to this year.  The games up here are insane and as fun as they are to go to, I ususally prefer to just watch them at home instead of having to stand in the student section for 3+ hours.

I love this pic! Bry is lookin at Dal like,"what the heck"? haha. Even though this wasn't taken too long ago she is SO much bigger now, she looks like a baby still in this pic.

We had such a fun summer and were way sad for it to end, but excited for fall at the same time.  Right before school started up again we spent about 4 days in Blanding just chillin with everyone and then went to Fish Lake with Dal's family, of course I got no pictures of that, but we had so much fun with both families and kinda got us rejuvenated to start up another semester!

I'm still LOVING my job and working a ton.  I always knew I would like doing hair but seriously, my job is awesome ha.  I usually work 40-50 hours a week which keeps me busy but I love it.  Dal has started up his hardest year at USU in his program and is doing way good so far.  He's really busy with work and school but he never complains or anything, so honestly I wouldn't even know if he was hating his life cause he's just always so happy and easy goin.

We're doing good up here and have really actually gotten to like Logan! The only down side is how freakin far it is from our families, but other than that, we're so used to it up here now! We played summer league softball with some friends and usually have something fun to do most nights of the week so, no more complaints here (even though we do wish we were back living in Blanding or Delta:)

Hopefully it won't be quite so long before I update again, but who am I kidding, it will be haha.

Vegas/California 2012

So we just got back from a week long vacation to Vegas and California, so fun! We needed a little getaway before Dal started his 6-week summer classes, and his cousin was getting married in San Diego so we decided to make a family trip out of it. We're way sad that Brandon, Audrey, Aspen, Cory, Jamie and Case couldn't come though! We had a blast and were not ready to come home.  There's a MILLION pics on here, sorry, and they are all kinda out of order.

 On our way to the airport

 Brynn and Shayne at Circus Circus.  Everytime I would pull my camera out Brynn would pose and cheese it for me and Shayne would purposely look away and act like I wasn't there, she is too funny.

 Brynn hanging out with us in Vegas

 The pool Tuesday morning.  There were 5 pools here so it kept us, especially the little girls, busy.  It was like 100 degrees in Vegas that day so we got some sweet tan lines.

 Walkin the strip with everyone

 This was outside the Mormon Battalion in San Diego.  It was a church history site and was way cool, if ya ever go down there thats a place you want to go!

 Dal and Shayner swimming.  The boys and little girls had SO much fun swimming.  They spent every night at the pool and never wanted to get out.

 Shayne and Dal on another pool trip

 Mission Beach San Diego.  Dal and Kory are out boogie boarding and there were dolphins way close to them, you can kinda see them in the picture.  There were a lot more out there, so cool.

 At the Padres vs Diamondbacks game.  No one looks too enthused but we all had a blast.

 Waiting for Tanner and Lindsey to come out of the temple.

 Shayne telling everyone to "stop".  She freakin kills me, she's so funny.  All week she would tell us and strangers to stop and stick her hand out like that and then laugh. She has such a funny personality!

 Outside the temple

 Russ and Liz outside the temple.  We were so glad we got to spend all week with them, thanks for everything!

Brynn swimming with Shayne's floaties.  Love this girl, she is so cute and sweet. She would call me to come down to whatever store she was at with Jenny so that I would come down and look at the jewelry with her, this little girl loves to shop.
I'm so glad Russ and Liz and Kory and Jenny could all come down on this trip cause it really was so fun! I love hanging out with Jenny, she's freakin funny and we get a long so good. 


Now we're back in Logan, we moved....again! We now live in a townhome way off campus so its nice to not be in such a college atmosphere. Dal is taking 2 classes this summer, Physics 2 and Thermodynamics, no clue what that one is ha.  He just started but is doing good so far! I'm still working at Silver Clippers full time and am loving it! I can't believe it took me so long to go to hair school, I should have been doing this for years cause its just so fun for me.  I work with way fun girls and we have a busy walk-in base so it keeps me busy!!

February

So ya, I know it's not February anymore but we actually did do a few things and take a couple pictures so I figure I better document. They are all in a pretty random order because I still don't understand this whole blogger thing...

Random pic of us. Of course if I decide to wear something that says USU then Dal feels the need to make sure to wear a BYU something or other so that people still know we like the cougars lol.

My sweet shoes Dal picked out for me for Valentine's Day! He said he was sick of me wearing "skinnies and boots" so he took it upon himself to help out my wardrobe a little, and I LOVE these shoes.

Ya, he's 24 and he still wanted a remote control helicopter, so that's what he got for Valentine's! Kory Morris had one and all the boys thought it was the coolest thing in the world so of course they all needed one. Good thing it only stays charged for about 10 minutes or we might not get anything done around here ha.

It was FREEZING but he still stayed outside for forever flying.

Dal's b-day in Delta. Of course there's the Brynnster front and center helping out Dal with his presents:) He's been wanting a Blue-Ray player for a long time so I finally got him one, even though I don't understand the big deal completely. He got the Bourne Trilogy on Blue Ray too since him and Garrin are in love with Jason Bourne, haha.

Everything has been good as normal with us:) I have 11 days left of school and have taken and passed all my state board exams so I just have to wait to get my hours so I can get my license and start working, finally!!! I got a job at a salon in Logan called Silver Clippers and am SO excited. Two of my hair school instructors work there too so that will be fun to still have them around.

Dal has been doing way good in all his classes but is ready for spring break to come next week for a break. We won't be going anywhere since I still have school but he'll get to relax and just chill. We'll be going to San Diego in June for Dal's cousin's wedding and have a few more plans for the summer so hopefully we survive til then, but if it keeps snowing up here I might just freak a little bit!

Jazz Game

A couple weekends ago we met Kory, Jenny and the girls in Salt Lake to go watch the Jazz. It was SO fun, they won and they never win when we actually go to a game so it was a good change for us ha.

The girls

No, this is not water, and no, Jenny did not pee her pants, but Shayne definitely did! They ran out of diapers and like no one in the whole ESA had an extra one, so while Shayne was sitting diaper-less on Jenny's lap she peed like this not once, but twice! So sucky for Jenny but everyone else was pretty entertained. Even Shayne ha.


And we now have a nephew! This pic is just from a cell phone, but so cute huh! His name is Case Cory Webb and we are SO excited to finally have a boy in the fam (even though we love the 3 neices tons). Congrats to Cory and Jamie!



Same ol' with us though. Dal's school is getting more and more hectic, we went 2 straight days last week without seeing each other awake but hopefully that will calm down soon. I have a little over a month left of school and can't wait! I've taken all my tests and all that so now I just need to finish up my hours!

1 Year Down...

So, this will be kind of a depressing/poor picked on me/wanna slit my wrists type of post. We have been in Logan for a year now and have decided.....we do not fit in here ha. Everyone we meet thinks we're weird for being from small towns and that we like to play sports, fish, hunt, get ready for the day/wear make-up/not wear a polygamist braid, etc. We have a few friends that are normal but our schedules never seem to work with each other so we don't really do much with them.
Moral of the story is, we miss Blanding, Delta and Cedar! I don't think we realized how good we had it in Cedar when we had tons of married friends around us, plus two of Dal's siblings and their spouses and my sister there too. Whenever we get to go home we never want to leave because we know we are coming back up to this hole where everyone likes to mountain bike and ballroom dance for fun.
So now that I'm done venting, just know I miss everyone and we think you all should take turns visiting us up here in the artic! My mom, Russ & Liz, Jenny & Kory, Brandon & Audrey and Mandi & Jordan have all made the trek so I think it's everyone else's turn!

(Side note: in my last post I said how warm its been up here. Turns out that was a lie cause it's freakin freezing now! Matter of fact, I just slipped on the ice carrying a glass bowl of corn. Let's just say, our neighbors now have a snack outside their door in case they get hungry cause it's too freakin cold to clean it up now).

(Postive note: We love our new apartment, and me and Dal have fun up here just by ourselves. We've been renting lots of movies, playing Idiot (card game), going to USU games, playing Friends trivia, playing Mario Kart (which means we're getting better so we're ready to beat the competition, meaning Cheyna and Dustin) and lots of other stuff. We're not all that miserable...well Dal is, his school sucks this semester, sad for him, but I just had to have a poor picked on me session and get it out of my system.

MISS YOU ALL!!!